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Day 312, the sun has set, we have stabilized in hospitalizations and cases in Alberta to where we were hovering in early December when more restrictions set upon us, but in 312 days 1,512 Albertans have lost their lives to Covid, with roughly the same lost to opioid overdoses in our province in the year, the ripples of grief throughout. It is time a part, time separated, time where we are left to ponder why?

The Desert Fathers and Mothers were those that chose to set themselves a part from the world to draw closer into the love and wisdom of the Holy Mystery. And as this time draws on, I wonder what we are to learn about ourselves and how our world can be and should be…for truly we are seeing how broken the system is and in need of rebirth.

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Whether you understand it as prayer, meditation, contemplation, mindfulness, or silence it is the moments when the still quiet voice is heard. What is heard? What are you feeling?

Where does H-O-P-E emerge?

Where do you find hope? How can we renew hope and re-learn hope in our world?

It is not just being drawn back to the ancient wisdom of the monks of the wilderness today, but starting to reflect on the hope the world was trying to create at the turn of the millennium in 2000 (or 2001 for the type A’s). I remember it was a season of being in lay ministry in the Catholic church, reading and watching the Pope I served under, Pope John Paul II, and the concept of Jubilee. More ancient wisdom that can heal our world and let us emerge from being distanced into something better than the “before times”.

But it takes faith. It takes belief in, and action to the concept that human life has intrinsic value. More value than money. It is re-understanding that money is a tool, not an all consuming hoarde.

What is jubilee? Simple, it is ancient wisdom from the Hebrew Bible (Leviticus 25:1-13), a year of rest, a year of communing with creation. It is a year of graceful forgiveness and new beginnings. Imagine a world where we focused on citizens and creation. We have already seen glimmers of the healing that can happen in the environment by our world forced to go slow. We have seen that the world can continue when we as people are forced off the hamster wheel. Yes I hear the cries for money and economy, but what if all debt was forgiven? And we simply got a chance to start from 0.

Are you starting to feel hope?

What needs to change, when we emerge from our own desert time, for hope to exist and abound a new for you? For you family? Your neighbour? Our world?

Image result for heroes in crisis 9Murder. Losing control. Pain. Trauma. What do our super heroes go through in the course of being universe savers? These are questions that the Heroes in Crisis mini-series have forced upon the reader for nine issues. The under current is a murder mystery, at the place of healing Sanctuary. It is also a subplot as the secrets of Sanctuary at the healing of PTSD and other mental-emotional scars of gods on Earth were leaked out for the world to see. It struck chords of de-stigmatization, and a look in the mirror effect for the reader for our world today. That is how we need to look at the healthy parts of our lives.

For anyone who has ever been front lines for anything, or present at the loss of a loved one. As Wally West echoes to his future self– it is always one more thing…one more moment you shove it down to do this or that, help this person or that. Not always having the perfect situation or even the basics, but pulling one more miracle out of your back pocket…

Then boom.


It’s not just a comic book series, like any good story it is a metaphor for our own life and holistic growth.

How are you kind to you?

(And yes it is very hard to write of this awesome series without spoilers)

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coverA stone skipping across a pond leaves ripples with each impact.

The joys and life of traumas are the like the skipping stone through the generations.

Soul Ripples

What happens when the helper needs help?

For over 20 years Ty Ragan served his neighbour from the rough camps to the shelters to home and every where’s in-between. The simple life lesson of Jesus of Nazareth to love your neighbour as yourself was the centre question to be answered in his life. In May 2016 his life would begin to change drastically through unknown seizures and strokes.

Enter into the ripples that brought him to 2016, the transformational power of love of family and friends as he seeks new ripples in hope for his soul.


Many were calling for Bobbi’s head. Canada does not have a death penalty, but it doesn’t mean it isn’t raised many times in regards to gun crimes. It was hard to progress with charges when the victim was non-co-operative, he asked for the possibility with the Crown Prosecutor for a house arrest style situation at St. Jude’s that would allow Bobbi to complete school, and work off compensation as a janitor.

Jacobs pressed the button to raise his bed up so he could look out the window with his one good eye.  He watched the armoured figured fly across. Grinned slightly. The bullet had shattered his left eye and knocked him on his butt. Bobbi had attempted to save him, who knew there would be a supernatural intervention so love could overcome hate. His fingers traced the eye patch, he could add pirate to his job list.

Fidgeting in the uncomfortable office chair was retired constable, Sean James. “Many thought you were a goner.”

Jacobs laughed. “Can’t be that morose and dark all the time, sometimes a new beginning means literally that.”

“She’s settling in well.” James said, while picking at a band aid on the back of his hand.

“But can we afford her?” Jacobs already new what his head Elder thought, finances was his concern. Lee never worried about those, he always stood by the flow method, if he created space for the need it would flow in. “Melanie Moon will be an excellent Co-Minister of St. Jude’s.” She had stood the line, the people trusted her. It made sense, and was a good transition from her work after the election of chaos and hate.

James just shook his head and grinned. If he wanted to be an elder at a church that was easy on the ulcer he would’ve joined a United one that y’know actually panicked about things as nickles and dimes in offering plates as opposed to jumping in head first. “Ashram has been bulldozed.” James said. “Break ground on the retired agent residence, will also have a side door working with the agency for any Supras and their spouses.” Jacobs nodded, a residence with on sight psychologists 7 days a week in their on-site medical clinic.  Surprisingly the idea had come from Beth Venus, who was now living in a room in the newly rebuild Manse of St. Jude. Having seen what happened to the old guard, she wanted something better. Since Speedster had left her the property, James worked with her to create the design.

“How’s Bobbi?” Jacobs asked. The boy had not come to see him since he had been loaded into the ambulance. He was worried for him.

James moved from the chair and walked towards the door, the other 3 beds in the room were still empty. He opened the door and stepped out. Jacobs heard some talking before walking back in with Bobbi. The lad locked eyes on Jacobs good eye.

“Father Jacobs I am soo—”

Jacobs interrupted. “Don’t apologize. You tried to save lives. You are working off your debt. I hold no debt or reason for forgiveness over you.” Jacobs waited a few beats as this boy looked stunned. Even after the few years at St. Jude’s, he was not used to compassion in response to what would appear against the grain. Or missing the mark.

“Bobbi, friends?”

Jacobs extends his hand to Bobbi. A shaking teenage hand takes the one with i.v. lines in the back of it.

One Enigmatic Tale Ends

Others await to be told.

Ah 62 CE or thereabouts as (Saint) Paul (formerly Saul) of Tarsus was in prison following his voyage to Rome. Yes, we have hit an undisputed authentic letter of Paul, his shortest epistle, and one of the top 4 shortest in the Christian Testament (2 & 3 John and Jude coming before). Paul had some aid in a co-authorship some believe with his disciple Timothy. It was a short letter to the city of Colosse (note Epislte of Colossians). It was for the whole community, but specifically written to the wealthy church leader (possibly bishop) there, Philemon. We know Philemon was wealthy, as the letter deals with forgiveness and reconciliation with a slave, Onesimus, who had left Philemon’s home, and his role to serve Paul in prison.

Paul, a prisoner for Christ Jesus, and Timothy our brother,

To Philemon our beloved fellow worker and Apphia our sister and Archippus our fellow soldier, and the church in your house:

Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ

-Epistle of Philemon 1-3 (English Standard Version)

First off let’s tackle the elephant in the room with this tweet thread (as it would probably come to Colosse today). Slavery is wrong. The church used passages and writings such as Philemon to prop up the slave industry for far too long. We still see the remnants of it today with language used around sweat shops; no raises in minimum wage; fights against living wages; and those that would defend sex trafficking (or sex trade for those who have not freely chosen it). Paul was a man of his time period when slavery was apart of the socio-economics of the day. He is not writing to endorse the practice, for other writings of his boldly spoke out against slavery (there is no slave, no free). Do not use these words to endorse caste system for that is not the purpose.

I thank my God always when I remember you in my prayers, because I hear of your love and of the faith that you have toward the Lord Jesus and for all the saints, and I pray that the sharing of your faith may become effective for the full knowledge of every good thing that is in us for the sake of Christ.[a] For I have derived much joy and comfort from your love, my brother, because the hearts of the saints have been refreshed through you

-Epistle of Philemon 4-7 (ESV)

It is within these words that Paul truly lays out the worth of every human life, every image bearer. Contrary to current and ancient belief on the matter:

Accordingly, though I am bold enough in Christ to command you to do what is required, yet for love’s sake I prefer to appeal to you—I, Paul, an old man and now a prisoner also for Christ Jesus— 10 I appeal to you for my child, Onesimus,[b] whose father I became in my imprisonment.11 (Formerly he was useless to you, but now he is indeed useful to you and to me.) 12 I am sending him back to you, sending my very heart. 13 I would have been glad to keep him with me, in order that he might serve me on your behalf during my imprisonment for the gospel, 14 but I preferred to do nothing without your consent in order that your goodness might not be by compulsion but of your own accord. 15 For this perhaps is why he was parted from you for a while, that you might have him back forever, 16 no longer as a bondservant[c] but more than a bondservant, as a beloved brother—especially to me, but how much more to you, both in the flesh and in the Lord.

17 So if you consider me your partner, receive him as you would receive me. 18 If he has wronged you at all, or owes you anything, charge that to my account. 19 I, Paul, write this with my own hand: I will repay it—to say nothing of your owing me even your own self. 20 Yes, brother, I want some benefit from you in the Lord. Refresh my heart in Christ.

21 Confident of your obedience, I write to you, knowing that you will do even more than I say. 22 At the same time, prepare a guest room for me, for I am hoping that through your prayers I will be graciously given to you.

-Epistle of Philemon 8-22 (ESV)

Level up to justice and equality. In Paul’s fashion calling out an outdated practice for one that calls themselves into leadership. It is not about the labels, the hierarchy. It is a flat plain of belonging. Forgiving the affronts of society, which is what Philemon had to struggle with for Onesimus left to do the good work of caring for another. In other words, Philemon had to let go of ego and his prestige to welcome Onesimus back. Not only welcome him back though, but become a living example of forgiveness, and the next step reconciliation. In our world, it is apt to remember forgiveness does not mean condoning actions- what Paul is showing here is actions were good and Philemon is being held back by societal construct of vengeance on property- the truth was spoken, much like truth and reconciliation.

As with some actions in our society of violence, reconciliation can be a personal matter to your own being, not letting the pain control you anymore, or the abuser. In some situations it can be an agreed upon moving forward, as we have seen in South Africa, where truth was spoken, and is taught of the horrors of the past, but the society has agreed to move forward with a new beginning.

The fresh start of the Roman prison system. If you survived your time, upon release no record followed you. That is what Paul is communicating to Philemon by saying see Onesimus as he would Paul. Destroying any caste system that Philemon would attempt to fall back on, for the new path.

What caste system belief is holding back the whole you?

 Epaphras, my fellow prisoner in Christ Jesus, sends greetings to you,24 and so do Mark, Aristarchus, Demas, and Luke, my fellow workers.

25 The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit.

-Epistle of Philemon 23-25 (ESV)

Acknowledging others within the movement. Thanking those you work with for what has been accomplished. Simple leadership secrets that build a person up.

Onesimus was heading back to his owner…would a new reality await?

What new reality awaits you?


Sin and forgiveness. Brutal sacrifice of animal, self-flagellation, a brutal murder of a son by his loving father for redemption…all ancient stories interpreted into the modern age through a very new reading of texts as literal. What is forgotten is allegory, the art of legend for truth, and the context the story was written in. What was forgotten with Levitical laws is a people once enslaved, debased and abused returning to their homeland and needing to discover themselves, heal from trauma, and re-learn how to connect with their inner core, their Golden Cord, one that Brother Jesus illuminated with his greatest commandments in Matthew 22:34-40 (New Living Translation):

34But when the Pharisees heard that he had silenced the Sadducees with his reply, they met together to question him again. 35One of them, an expert in religious law, tried to trap him with this question: 36“Teacher, which is the most important commandment in the law of Moses?”

37Jesus replied, “‘You must love the LORD your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’e 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’f 40The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.”

What is missed in this core of the ancient law, is what was missed in the recited Shema, and in the Levitical Law and cultic practices of the day—that it comes to the core of the being, the love of self, for in discovering love of yourself that is authentic you have awakened. One who is awakened is resonating at a vibrational level of truly living in awareness of unity within the Holy Mystery and the Holy Mystery within.

John The Baptist, Jesus’ elder cousing by 6 months, he of the hair loin cloth, wild honey and locust eating, an Essenes living in the wilderness, neither shaving (and probably not bathing), calling out the so called religious who are using God’s name in vain, who have placed power and control as the God above Love.  The nest of vipers, revealed by this Harbinger—the one that will lead the way (for those of DC Comic persuasion in the `80’s will remember the Millenium crossover and the Forever People who were leading the call for the evolution of the Meta-Gene…anyway I digress).

For not was much written of this chap outside of his conception, and then the time of Baptizing Jesus, to then his beheading for a child who a Herod lusted after…but what was his back story. The Aquarian Gospel shares some thoughts that may resonate with you on this account, but in the idea of sin and forgiveness, using the language of the early 20th century it rolls out a teaching around Sin/Forgiveness and a challenge to the idea of Murder on the Cross for our Sins (13:11-22):

  1. John was delighted with his visit to Jerusalem. Matheno told him all about the service of the Jews; the meaning of their rites.
    12.John could not understand how sin could be forgiven by killing animals and birds and burning them before the Lord.
    13. Matheno said, The God of heaven and earth does not require sacrifice. This custom with its cruel rites was borrowed from the idol worshippers of other lands.
    14. No sin was ever blotted out by sacrifice of animal, of bird, or man.
    15. Sin is the rushing forth of man into fens of wickedness. If one would get away from sin he must retrace his steps, and find his way out of the fens of wickedness.
    16. Return and purify your hearts by love and righteousness and you shall be forgiven.
    17. This is the burden of the message that the harbinger shall bring to men.
    18. What is forgiveness? John inquired.
    19. Matheno said, It is the paying up of debts. A man who wrongs another man can never be forgiven until he rights the wrong.
    20. The Vedas says that none can right the wrong but him who does the wrong.
    21. John said, If this be true where is the power to forgive except the power that rests in man himself? Can man forgive himself?
    22. Matheno said, The door is wide ajar; you see the way of man’s return to right, and the forgiveness of his sins.

Matheno a wisened elder in Egypt takes the young John under his wing and into the temple for a celebration, where the blood—I mean just imagine the aromas, the death, the burning, the blood, the cries of animals as they know what is to come, the chanting, children and women cast outside not able to bear witness to the horror, but this child does, and asks a deeply profound question: why does God want blood?

Think of that, for it is a question I have always had throughout my journey when I am told that it is death on the cross, shed blood that gave me access to God….

            Why does God want blood?

Or if we take the source of all—

Why does Love demand Death?

Why does Love demand Violence?

Why does Love demand BLOOD?

And John takes the journey, for without blood, and force sacrifice then a group cannot control and exert authority, for if love is all, and it resides in all, through all and with all…then…if love is all there is…

Sin, forgiveness, cannot stand…love wins…

And the blood, death, violence…is not of Love…it is false…it is designed to break the Golden Cord…

So step out, tune in, awaken…and Love will lead. Love will heal.

So are you willing to let Love reign in you, through you and with you?