The Lenten Season officially comes to a close with what is known as the “scourging of the altar” concludes Lent. The betrayal is nigh, and the Good Friday awaits…but let us not skip ahead, but fall back to the week that was…and will be again.
Saturday before the Triumphal entry upon a burrow known as a an ass
A morning of flashbacks uncontrollably cracking through
beating my body like a desert hot wind against skin
cracking skin
letting the pain out
need to put it back in
Wonderful conversations
In workshops around
TheGood Grief Journey in to the New
What it means to be church?
Hold the Holy Silence?
Grow circles of Support?
Live through change–as pieces of Grief, pastoral care.
Holy Spirit things
Make it through
Lost to the wilderness…
Unable to resist
the pain renders through an already ravage system
Palm Sunday
Some say a Triumphal Entry,
Brother Jesus coming with those cast away from society on one side of the city
with dying reminders of the oppression of religion and Empire along the streets.
While Empire celebrated and marched on the other side,
flexing their muscle to bully and intimidate
Usually waving palms and singing Hosannas,
Folding crosses
and celebrating the Prince of Peace
Rolling through my own entries
Memories physically, emotionally and spiritually crippling
scant moments of lucid awakeness
before once more returning to fitful sleeps of thoughts creating
Waking nightmares
That have to be lived once more
what truly is one’s own entry of triumph
to sing Hosanna?
Monday’s Temple Toss
Human functions of worship
not used to include
but to exclude and bear burden
not to a sacred sanctuary but a money pit
a den of thieves
Jesus causes a stampede and throws tables chasing away
those that desecrate Holy Love.
Me and Little man,
convalescing,
still trying to get Pandora’s demons back into her box
seeing what will remain to work through.
Nothing creates sacred sanctuary
like a boy and his dad
watching cartoons
Discourse Tuesday
Where Jesus whither’s figs, talks with religious types and the end of oppression…
Body won’t let the demons reveal
it tremors with weakness,
still unsure if fully up,
after the recycle of harsh symptoms sans seizure racked my body
Shrink shows tools
that are of use,
to unpack the thoughts
and bring them to better use
An election goes
the way of awry
and people are left with depression inside
eating fries and sipping coffee
even your friend admits you don’t look healthy.
Why won’t the demons either pop or go back in the box?
The constant teariness is most obnox.
Spy Wednesday
Some would call it Holy,
but it is tied to the ending of ideals
and goodness…
of the oppressors plotting the End Game
for a rambling labourer turned rabbi of peace and love
perhaps a bit on the nose,
but it is a time of sipping coffee and inverting the game
plotting to build belonging
by shattering oppressive stereotypes
the demons are beginning to crawl back in
the one’s the body lets me deal,
crumble to dust
with the tools given
to explode the thoughts….
Wilderness time closes…
as we prepare the table
Maundy Thursday
Short form of Latin Mandatum novum do vobis ut diligatis invicem sicut dilexi vos (A New Commandment I give you)
The demons I cannot handle,
are locked away once more
for a healthier time to pick those scabs
A Day of rest
refresh
await the Holy Table to be set
and the water of the first sacrament to be poured
the words, A New Commandment I give you…
is the one to love.
Jesus showed
by humility of washing feet
to know and show love
The unfamiliarity
in the hot sanctuary
not what was expecting
yet the words around Gethsemane
and prayer
being awake and present
bringing it real
not just gospel story real,
but in everyday life
will we be willing to truly sit with
be present and awake with,
one another…
with ourselves?